i am not happy

1)why?

-because i'm feelin alone, cold.

2)what makes you happy?

-love

3)u seek love?

-maybe and yes. companion. i don't want to sound delirably desperate

4)frens? they can't make u happy?

-yes and no. sincere, works. curiosity and blabbers kills.

5)name your good fren (for now)

-uda and lai bcoz they seem to understand

6)wut about your workplace?

-sux big time. but i love my job. it's the management that drives me mad.

7)other things that makes u happy?

-i'm not sure but maybe meeting up positive and energetic new people. i absorbs energy from people around me. so i like to be surrounded by positive aura people.

8)do you have a best buddy?

-yes.we used to hang out very often long time ago but not that often now.

9)and have the same interests?

-absolutely. but believe me or not, she's opposites to me. many people think that we think alike.

10)wut are you trying to say?

-i wish i could be like her, but i'm just me. she's very open and extroverted while i'm the introvert one. she likes to organizes things. and it's good.

11)what'd you like to tell your friends about yourself?

-that i'm not easily open up stories about me. not even to my best buddy.

12)why?

-because it's my right to do so. so please, accept me for what i am and from what you see.

13)are you trying to be mysterious?

-no. some things we keep it only for our own references in fact, nothing is interesting about me that need to be shared.

14)wut you like the most and keep you happy?

-seeing world, culture, gain knowledge, the adrenaline of rush, cute bloke and music with lotsa energy.

15)your hobbies? that are shy to tell everyone?

err..cooking, gardening and my passion for toiletteries.

16)the most relaxing moment?

-reading a good book in the morning with a smell of burning incense stick plus romantic oldies songs.

17)what you can't say no to?

-late night dinner treat? anyone?

18)pet hate?

-show off and people who are trying to act smart.

19)you are concern aboout..

-time.don't waste my time. a relevant excuse accepted.

20)so you are a strict person?

-i am the yes if i mean it and no is a no. i'm a realist. so give a good reason.

21)you take things seriously. maybe you should slow down.

-i have a drive. i can't slow down. but i'm learning to for my own good sake if you mean it. thanks.

22)favourite past times?

-don't care attitude, fun is my middle name. been there, done that makes me feel superior. experiences makes me stronger and hard as a person (which i don't like the most)

23)now what?

-like the commitment related. bills to pay, future, family, everything should be taken care of. the normal Malaysian-lah.

24)are you happy or not with that?

-happy because i've done what i should when i was a teenager and yeah everyone will face this phase where they should pay the bills..bla.bla.bla. it makes me grow. this is the time that i finally felt like 25.

aku memang simpan barang-barang lama. stok surat 1 kotak kot depa dah bakar. buku banyak kena makan anai-anai masa aku tinggalkan rumah travel sana-sini. tapi masih ada yang dalam good condition tu aku masih simpan. interview rambang terhadap diri sendiri ni dalam timbunan buku catitan aku. seingat aku mungkin masa aku tengah fuckep-up dengan my miserable life. Q n A sorang-sorang. apedehal, sekarang pun lebih kurang je.

fakapla mood tetiba emo.chait.

CUTT !!

hatiku dicuri lagi

Aku macam tak percaya dan tak sangka dalam pada kita masing-masing yang dah besar panjang ni, dah tahu berfikir, dah berkelas professional dalam kerjaya masing-masing mahupun dah disogok dengan cerita-cerita benar dan palsu, masih ada yang tak tahu membuat penilaian. Sadis. Ini bukan cerita pasal Abira, ini cerita pasal sedih dan kesal dengan kita yang konon tak mudah ditipu daya tapi termakan dek berita-berita aneh-palsu-terlindung oleh pihak-pihak yang sengaja menangguk di air yang keruh. Jangan cerita pasal kepartian, jangan cerita pasal kedaulatan, jangan cerita pasal rukun negara. Aku cakap pasal penilaian yang dimomok demi kepentingan pelbagai (?) pihak.

Hati-hati dengan televisi, benda yang 3 warna 4 warna ni memang naif dalam mengaplikasikan maksud yang sebenar. Ape jenis media pun, yang menilai itu sepatutnya diri sendiri, hati sendiri. Setiap orang ada peranan masing-masing, kerja masing-masing, kalau rasa tak serasi buat apa bertahan menipu diri? Cerita pasal tanggung jawab dan amanah. Biar lembap bersebab, jangan bebal bersuap.

bubur kat jalan sultanah tu lama tak makan la :'(

CUTT !!

buat mereka yang tahu

Kegembiraan itu memang patut dikongsi barulah boleh dinikmati efeknya. Kalau duit berjuta belum tentu boleh beli happy secawan. Ada orang pulak sanggup bergolok-gadai maruah dan harga diri demi duit. Duit jugak banyak bawak porak peranda dalam dunia ni. Nak bergembira memang pakai duit, cari dengan cara betul barulah gembira itu boleh datang. Jadi hamba duit memang hidup tak tenteram, cuba twist pulak..biar duit jadi hamba kita. Amalkan pemikiran begitu, amalkan senyum dan sedekah. Aku sebenarnya nak cakap pasal gembira ni...

Bila status dihapuskan, semua orang pun akan rasa sama, rasa tanggung jawab, rasa ada sesuatu yang patut dipikul, digendong demi sebuah misi. Kita memang berhak sepenuhnya terhadap apa yang kita rasa dan puncak klimaks itu memang terletak pada tangan kita. Kalau rasa dah besar, besar kepala, besar perut...memang tak jadi apa. Kadang-kadang aku letakkan diri pada situasi dengan menjadi halimunan atau chameleon, barulah kita akan faham situasi kenapa dan mengapa. Kita takkan dapat menjadi adil sepenuhnya, tapi kita sepatutnya cuba.

Aku rasa bangga dengan semua di keliling aku, kawan-kawan, kekucing, kereta lumba, kaki pancing...buat seketika aku harap rasa ini kekal selama-lamanya. Aku tahu mereka juga rasa apa yang aku rasa. So very proud of my fellas. Thank you semua, i love you, aku akan frame dan persembahkan pada anak cucu. Ini semua kita kongsi bersama, ini semua milik kita.




Ya, milik kita :)

it was more than 60 stooges

CUTT !!